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Hi again everyone.

I'm in the UK until 12th December, only a few days left now.  I came over for my 88 year old mum's funeral just over three weeks ago.

It seemed strange at first, and of course it is like coming into another world because it is another world!  I miss mum, of course I do, but because she had Alzheimer's and was gradually losing what memory she had left, it was as they say "a blessing."

Nothing could come even close to the feeling I had when I lost my daughter Jane, and I guess that if I cry for mum, and also dad who I lost in December last year, I'm really crying for my loss because they're lives had become intollerable. It's ok to mourn for your own loss though, experience has taught me that.

Everywhere I look here in the UK reminds me of Jane. We were very close as mum and daughter, and used to go shopping together and for meals which means that most places I go to remind me of her.  Not that I need reminding, because I only have to look at a mum and daughter together whether here or back in Aus, and my heart aches for what Jane is missing and of course what I'm missing too.

Life goes on so they say, and in all truth it does, but as many of my friends on here know, a part of me is missing and life will never be the same. In spite of that, we do what we can, and hope that our efforts to carry on and just put one foot in front of the other will inspire others to do the same.

Bye for now my friends, and I hope to speak to some of you again when I return to the beautiful country that has adopted me.

Hugs Ann  x

Written on 06 Dec 2011
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